song lyrics: aka yes I'm really depressed

what's it been over a decade?
it still smarts like it was four minutes ago
we only influenced each other totally
we only bruised each other even more so

what are you my blood? you touch me like you are my blood
what are you my dad? you affect me like you are my dad

how long can a girl be shackled by you
how long before my dignity is reclaimed
how long can a girl stay haunted by you
soon i'll grow up and i won't even flinch at your name
soon i'll gorw up and i won't even flinch at your name

where've you been? i heard you moved to my city
my brother saw you somewhere downtown
i'd be paralyzed if i ran into you
my tongue would seize up if we were to meet again

what are you my god? you touch me like you are my god
what are you my twin? you affect me like you are my twin

how long can a girl be tortured by you
how long before my dignity is reclaimed
how long can a girl be haunted by you
soon i'll grow up and i won't even flinch at your name
soon i'll grow up and i won't even flinch at your name

so here i am one room away from where i know you're standing
a well-intentioned man told me you just walked in
this man knows not of how this information has affected me
but he knows the colour of the car i just drove away in

what are you my kin? you touch me like you are my kin
what are you my air? you affect me like you are my air

and how long can a girl be tortured by you
and how long before my dignity is reclaimed
and how long can a girl be haunted by you
soon i'll grow up and i won't even flinch at your name
soon i'll grow up and i won't even flinch at your name

I guess you know you've arrived when Alanis is pertinent to your life. Other than the me being male part...

Work Stuff

At work now. Ate at Subway on the way in. Tried the new Honey Oat bread. It's wheat bread with oats and honey on it. How original. But it is good.

Had a Les Mis moment this morning. Haven't had one of those in years. (Les Mis moment is me moping and singing songs from Les Mis cuz I'm depressed and it is one of the most depressing musicals I've ever heard, but god is it incredible and I love it)

And I have Flinch stuck in my head now. Think I'll shove Alanis into the CD player and listen some.

Work is boring. Want to go home and go back to sleep. Oh well.

So, I noticed a co-worker was checking the personals on gay.com. So I decided to go take a look. Not anything real exciting. Can't get the chat app to work. Didn't expect to be able to, but I had to try. Heh.

Pondering what to have for dinner. I was thinking of going back to subway, but not sure. It was kinda slow and understaffed. Maybe Wendy's will work for dinner. Hmm. Should try to eat healthy though, if I'm going to lose weight, triple cheesburgers cannot be on the menu.

So back to co-workers. I have two male co-workers who I know are gay. Have at least one who I wish were gay. Heh. Well, okay 3 but still. And there's a lesbian too, but you know me, I don't much pay attention to that.

So, yeah, enough random stuff from me for now. Time to listen to music and not work and stuff.

oookay...

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speaking of which, time to pop her into the cd player

Some people are just never happy...

( Wow this one got long, guess I'll spare my friends the huge spew unless they wanna click and read themselves )