I have things I want to write about, but don't want people to read necessarily. Don't want to do Private posts though. I try to avoid those. Only like "notes to self" or something I'm not sure I want to link to for the world to see yet.
See, I write in here as if I were talking to certain people some times, but I don't necessarily want them to read it, you know? Well, actually that isn't true. I want them to read it, but I don't want them to let me know they read it. Cuz then I get all awkward and stupid. It's like leaving a really personal note to someone where you know they'll find it, but you're too scared to give it to them and then you wish you hadn't put it there the instant you know they found it. It's like, I play a scenario in my head and don't think about what really would happen.
So, I'll post this and invariably get the "what the fuck was that?" response from people and I'll be like "it was a LJ post, what did it look like? Stir fry?"
See, I tend to ramble. I'll have something semi-deep and meaningful on my mind, but unless I'm really really fucking tired, I actually can't write about it. Mental lock out or something. Kinda weird.
So, I turned anonymous posting back on, with me screening them. I know a few people who read my journal who are not LJ members, so I figure this way they can respond if they want to. If I start getting random fuckwads trying to post, I can deny them their right to exist and all will be well in the world.
I'm becoming addicted to The Sims again. Ok, correction, I've become addicted to The Sims again. I have all my subscriptions up and running (8DS, WDS, SimFreaks) and I'm downloading like mad. I found an incredibly awesome tutorial on recoloring so now I'm actually going to make my own stuff. Maybe that wet t-shirt pic of Nick Brendan finally will make it's way into my game. ^_~
I want a boyfriend. Someone who isn't a total flake would be preferred. I have ideas on who it could be, there are some definite possibilities out there, but I think becoming friends with people needs to be my priority first. I sorta drifted away from a lot of my friends and I'd rather not fuck up like that again.
And I need to stop having dreams about Dave Bendena. Why he was "home from the military" in the dream last night is beyond me since last I knew he was acting in Chicago. :-p
See, I write in here as if I were talking to certain people some times, but I don't necessarily want them to read it, you know? Well, actually that isn't true. I want them to read it, but I don't want them to let me know they read it. Cuz then I get all awkward and stupid. It's like leaving a really personal note to someone where you know they'll find it, but you're too scared to give it to them and then you wish you hadn't put it there the instant you know they found it. It's like, I play a scenario in my head and don't think about what really would happen.
So, I'll post this and invariably get the "what the fuck was that?" response from people and I'll be like "it was a LJ post, what did it look like? Stir fry?"
See, I tend to ramble. I'll have something semi-deep and meaningful on my mind, but unless I'm really really fucking tired, I actually can't write about it. Mental lock out or something. Kinda weird.
So, I turned anonymous posting back on, with me screening them. I know a few people who read my journal who are not LJ members, so I figure this way they can respond if they want to. If I start getting random fuckwads trying to post, I can deny them their right to exist and all will be well in the world.
I'm becoming addicted to The Sims again. Ok, correction, I've become addicted to The Sims again. I have all my subscriptions up and running (8DS, WDS, SimFreaks) and I'm downloading like mad. I found an incredibly awesome tutorial on recoloring so now I'm actually going to make my own stuff. Maybe that wet t-shirt pic of Nick Brendan finally will make it's way into my game. ^_~
I want a boyfriend. Someone who isn't a total flake would be preferred. I have ideas on who it could be, there are some definite possibilities out there, but I think becoming friends with people needs to be my priority first. I sorta drifted away from a lot of my friends and I'd rather not fuck up like that again.
And I need to stop having dreams about Dave Bendena. Why he was "home from the military" in the dream last night is beyond me since last I knew he was acting in Chicago. :-p