Online life...

[jdotmi]

So, last night I had this entire plan for something I should write about in my journal. Had some things I wanted to say, things to share, things to ponder, etcetera. Parts of it I remember, parts of it are vague. Much of it is random.



Number one: Naive people online.

Now, mind you, I'm not talking about people who are naive about life in general, I'm talking about people who need an introduction to the on-line clue bus. Not newbies, there's a difference. These are people who can be online for months or years and not have clue one about how it works. You know, like direct-linking images in sig files for forums that are from quizzes you took, and the image for the quiz resides on some other webserver than your own. You know, these are the same people who post 8,000 messages a day to 2,000,000 message boards about how Britney is such a good singer and how Justin is so cute and how they want to have AJ's love child. And in every friggin post is this sig which is not on a server they own/registered for but is instead eating up the bandwidth of the person who decided to put the test up in the first place. Post it once and in general you're ok. A couple times to different boards and yeah I understand. But every freaking post you make direct linking images off of someone elses webserver that they are paying for is just, well, DUMB.

Of course, when you point this out to the people, they get all offended and freak out on you. They insist that their shit doesn't stink so they are obviously not doing anything wrong. Ok, whatever, you are the weakest link goodbye.

Number two: Online anonymity

Now, not talking about the fat, bald guy who pretends to be female (er, that sounds eerily like me, but I only play female characters and am more than upfront with the "hi I have a penis" bit) or the shy person who is very extroverted and witty online. I'm not talking about anything anyone consciously chooses to do online. I'm talking about the things you randomly learn that you thought were so completely the opposite from your previous conversations with someone. You know, chitter chatter health awareness chitter chatter regular exercise chitter chatter healthy cooking chitter chatter aerobics chitter chatter dying of lung cancer.

o_O

Mind you, I don't know anyone that extreme. For me, it's the people I see in various forums and various gay and gay friendly forums who you out of the blue learn is married. O_o Of course, normally this would not be an issue but you coulda sworn months ago they were talking about a partner which you were certain was meant in a relationship way and normally married folk don't do that. But, since those convos are long lost to the sands of time, you don't know if you were just delusional at the time or what.

Then there are the people that you speak with regularly who seem really cool, and you are aware they have some problems (bipolar, manic depressive, whatever) and you've seen them have bad times, but then they just go totally x-files on you and go ballistic over absolutely nothing and you just go "huh?" Mind you, this is someone who you know for a fact is taking proper medication, and with said medication they still think everyone is out to screw them over. Whatever, you just joined the loser club.

Number three: Online crushes

You would think that by now I would be very leery of falling for people online. Right? Of course! Well, duh!

...

Or not... Some of the above exampled people are people that I've had brief infatuations with for whatever reason. Heck, there are some who I've only seen online in passing and talked with a short while here and there in posts and have had crushes on. Sure, the guy is freakin hot as hell (and so way out of my league it ain't even funny) but still.

Then there are the chat room folk. Man, I'm currently working on two major crushes in that department. :-p One of them the crush is sorta tapering off, but still want to go out with him at least once. The second one is just kinda starting. It's very strange, now that I'm heading towards my mid 20s I'm actually interested in guys my age as opposed to guys that are far older. Ok, not far older, I never got THAT close to being a gay Anna Nicole Smith, but still. So this new semi-crush is actually my age, and it's so freakin bizzare. Mind you, neither of these guys are the type who I'd rip their clothes off and just go at it in public, mind you, there are only like 3 people in the entire world I would do that with (two of who'm I'm almost certain are straight). Anyway, the guys are cute, and I actually have at least some things in commone with them. So hard to find that for some reason. Fairly random.

Then there are the long-standing crushes. I think those are the most annoying. You know, the kind you've had for years, but you know nothing is ever going to come of it. Some former co-workers of mine fall into that category. I think at least one of them is straight (so sad) and one other is married and has kids, and the freaky part there is I know he's interested in me to, cuz, well, when we were co-workers we flirted like crazy and he told me all about what little experience he had. And then there's this guy I've known for like 5 years, we've met a couple times, hung out, chat online now and then, desperately want him, know he's not "the one", but just haven't had anything happen because, well, until now I've been in a relationship. So that's just whacked out, haven't talked to the guy in months, and lord only knows what's up there.

Then you have the sorta-hads, but not really. Have a crush on this one guy, had it for years, actually did stuff with him at one point, life moved on, random fucked up shit, hardly talk to him now, and still thinking "what if..." Hmm. One-night-stands coming back to haunt me or something. Well, that one wasn't a one-nighter. Got a couple of those I wouldn't mind expanding on, but one is, well, a royal slut and the other is involved.

Sheesh, just reminded myself of some crushes I had a while back that have long since gone away. Heh. Amusing. They'd be totally freaked out by that. *snicker*

So, in general, online crushes are bad. Why? They usually go no-where, or go to disasterville. Although, I did manage to pull a 4 year relationship out of one, so I suppose they aren't all bad. Well, we won't get into the rant on that bit though.

Only thing worse than on-line crushes are co-worker crushes. Too many friggin gorgeous straight men work here. This one guy has the most perfect ass I have seen in ages, and an awesome body, but, well, he's straight and sorta dense. :-p There are some gay guys here though, and one of them is kinda cute.

Oh well, no use being a horndog at work. May as well wait until I get home. :-p

Sheesh that was long...

Comments

[livininoz.livejournal.com]

Well you're not alone out there. There are plenty of stupid people to go around, scary that these people have actual lives and jobs. Proably dishing out french fries, but still...we gotta eat those fries.

And I so know what you're talking about with the online crushes thing. Every boyfriend I've had, except one, I met online. Quite honestly all have ended badly after 4 months. I find the online crushes to be at best less devastating.

I reallly shouldn't post while medicated.

[jdotmi.livejournal.com]

I've only had two serious boyfriends. Both met online. The first one ended after about 3 or 4 months. This last one was 4 years. I'm still kinda going back and forth between being depressed, pissed off, wanting him back, depressed, pissed off, wanting him back, etc etc etc.

I think I pulled off pissed off pretty well Friday night in my post. :-p